Old Love
From the very first moment I saw you, I surrendered to you.
It was immediate, effortless, as if the universe had whispered: this is it.
That weekend we shared the outings, the laughter, the walks
it remained suspended in time, as if the world had granted us a truce, a second chance.
I know it sounds like a cliché, but with you, I truly believed this time would be different.
I had learned to walk with caution, after so many scars still left open by the past, healed but bandaged, and for you, I covered my eyes and jumped.
I jumped with you, hoping we’d fall together, never hit the ground, that the trust born so quickly and the love sown in fertile soil would be enough to hold us up.
I wanted to believe that, in the fall, we would heal.
That we’d face our traumas with courage,
that we’d learn to speak without fear, to communicate in a healthy way,
to care for each other even when it hurt.
But something broke.
The communication that once flowed like a river became clumsy,
our vices began to blur the best parts of ourselves.
And there, midair, we got lost.
One gained more momentum, the other fell behind,
entangled in chaos, in wounds still bleeding,
in battles neither faced or wanted to.
And it was both of us.
We failed each other, unintentionally.
I regret it deeply.
I loved you, and I still love you in silence.
In another time, another place, maybe we could have been
that future we dreamed of,
if only we’d had the courage
to face who we truly were, instead of clinging to the illusion.
We filled ourselves with rage, with distance,
but I never thought it was all for nothing.
Your imprint is still here, alive, engraved,
and though my path continues,
I know yours moves forward too.
I imagine you shining, even through your darkest nights,
fighting to bring light to those shadows you once avoided.
As I do with mine.
We became reflections of the sun and the moon:
destined to cross paths,
to share the same light from distant ends.
And though we no longer walk side by side,
something of you lives within me, and I remain
hoping life redeems us in other forms.